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Emptiness by akirakirai Emptiness by akirakirai
TL;DR btw, I'm doing fine, I'm very happy right now :) I'm just writing from recent experience derp derp

A sinking, binding feeling which feels unescapable. Negative influences in our lives tend to magnify and become more important than all the positive moments that happened.
It feels as though nothing can lift us up at this point.

Depression is something that everyone feels at a point in their lifetime. The feeling of uselessness, that you can't handle what is going on -- an unbelievable amount of emotional stress. Sometimes even to the point where you feel like just going away would be a simpler choice.

I have been suffering from clinical depression (the more serious of the like) since I was a very, very young girl. Growing up, I felt so lonely -- everything I did was wrong and that nobody loved me.

Depression is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength. I remind myself that I am here and I have fought that monster for this long and that I am amazing.

I'll have my moments where I will feel, of course, depressed and down, but I have been doing a lot better now.
I just wish that other people around would understand that they are not alone. It feels that way, but they are not the only ones that feel such pain, and they are loved.

Drawing made me remember that I am good at what I do and that I do, in fact, have a purpose in life.

mechanical pencil / touch-ups on opencanvas
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GentleSquall Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Keep it up. I know a few people with Clinical Depression on medications. Your artworks shows your emotions clearly and they are excellent work.
Sir-Feng Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Hobbyist
I find your words with your drawing powerful, lovely work!
danieldan69 Featured By Owner May 26, 2014
Love the pic but mostly what you wrote!
Pwney Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello akirakirai

I hope you're having a good day :)
TheGreatSpain Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
(I am talking as the real me, not my anime character)
I get the feeling of pain or suffering, though some people like to point out my case as more serious than others. I have a rare disease known as "mirror touch" synesthesia, though it seems a lot different compared to other cases. You see, "mirror touch" synesthesia is usually when someone is able to feel the pain of others just by a simple touch. Me, it takes only a glance in order for me to completely know how they feeling. It's kind of like I'm literally stepping into their body and feeling their exact emotion. Pretty cool right? Well, not always.
To actually touch someone who is hurt would mean the end of me, that's why I try to avoid people when it comes to anything physical. I couldn't even hold my dad's hand when I was younger since I would be rushed to the hospital seconds later, and have to deal with a very emotional story of his desperately dark past.
When someone is in physical pain, I get an extremely painful sensation the exact same spot where other people have been hurt. Though it's sad, I've helped a lot of my friends finally get the courage to stop them from harming themselves, or to finally tell an officer about their family member that do terrible things to them.
I know it's sad. I know if it's really depressing to have to deal with all of this, but I'm kind of glad that I have this rare disease. Sure, there's a lot of negativity in it, but the outcome of it all is so good, and happy, and beautiful that I don't ever want to let it go. So, to all of those who read this, including the artist, I want you to know that I love each and everyone of you. If it's emotional (this sadly includes suicidal thought/acts that are only for pain, not death), there is someone out there for you! Someone who can help you through your sorrows and show you how meaningful and how beautiful you and your life really are. If it's physical, there are people who can help you with that as well! You no longer have to suffer alone anymore. I do, and always will love every thing on this Earth that has a reason of being here. Which means, I LOVE EVERYTHING! Especially you *pokes at screen*. Sorry, I had to troll at least a little bit Usui-bla (Takumi Usui) (I love these emotioncons!)Misaki-Yeah (Misaki Ayuzawa) Usui-hehehe (Takumi Usui) Usui-wave (Takumi Usui) 
Annndroid Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014
I've been feeling that way for a while! So glad I found this
guineapig590 Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2014
simply art, you need to think of doing this professionally
Poseidonsky Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
wow this is so amazing i wish i could express it like you do
LongingSwanheart Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I love your emotion works. They are so expressive. You picture the feelings very well.
aparisio Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
me encanta esta genial
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