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I Won't Move by akirakirai I Won't Move by akirakirai
I often have that feeling that I can't do anything right no matter how hard I try. It feels like any other move I make will just ruin things further.. and I'm afraid to move, afraid that I'll make the pain worse.

However, moving forward is what has been keeping me alive and going to this day, it is truly a harsh and difficult feeling but it's not truly impossible to get through.

İme, =akirakirai please do not use my art without my permission!
Drawn with 0.5 Mechanical Pencil, scanned from sketchbook, edited with OpenCanvas
last upload before I get back to work. LAST depression drawing for the year I promise LOL
Feel free to like me on facebook! :)
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SkylarMinx Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2015
I love your artwork. Your passion and emotions really show through these pieces. I hope however that you're alright. Everyone feels these at some point but I don't want this to be a prevalent thing for you. Be kind to yourself and love who you are. I know it's not easy but you deserve it and it's always worth the effort. I know this might be weird to say but if you ever need someone to talk to message me. And keep up the beautiful art!
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XxXxDeaththegirlxXxX Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i know how she feels all off those pictures she drew i can place myself in the picture and you wouldn't notice any thing wrong with the picture  
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guineapig590 Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2014
this, is, amazing, I cant describe it any other way you actually dew this with your hands I'm dumbstrucked
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RisaKeisu Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013
I feel like it right now. Your pictures sending so much emotions, i can see myself a lot in your paintings. Acctually it's kinda sad that you feel that way but you have a talent to turning emotions in very meaningful pictures where a lot of people feeling with you.
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MiaumioX3 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I know what you mean ._.
but the pic is just epic *-*
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xJashix Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013  Student General Artist
:iconcongratsplz: you have been featured in my journal: [link]
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tofu-survivor Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2012
That was really inspirational.
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AishaTheWeirdo Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
this is absolutely beautiful. you captured the emotion perfectly.
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Yobi-chan Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ooooh... I know that feeling. SO well... It's like... you want to commit suicide when you have it. But no, the best way is deffinitely walking on, as you say. Move forward. It'll soon wash away anyway, when some days have gone by.

The drawing is REALLY amazing and portrays the feeling quite well. I love it.
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lycoris-vampire Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Student Digital Artist
awsome <3
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Rimme Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I can really relate to this. ;w; Moving forward is one of the hardest things to do because its so painful. :(
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x-JustSmilee Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I think you did really well in expressing her pain in the drawing (:
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Kurtzan Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hi ! Your great work is freturing here : [link] :D
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BlackRelfection Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
just awesome, your work always blows my mind. and the meaning behind it is always deep and heartfelt. can't wait to see more from you. ^J^
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boxno Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
AHHHH Long time no seeee ; 3 ; I really like some of your darker pieces and I know how you feel > < You're really brave for moving forward even if you've got a lot in your life ; 3 ;
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AbandonedMelody Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
That feeling is basically the definition of my life. I absolutely love this, so deep, and so true!! Great work, its a beautiful piece :heart:
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Ainnita Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel the same now... I love your drawings, your art!
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DemoniqueAlma Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
It hurts right in the feels!
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KiwiSoul Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012
I go through that feeling almost every day. It takes guts for someone to be able to express that feeling so accurately on paper for the entire world to see. There is pain in thinking that you are the only one feeling it, so by sharing your feelings with the rest of us, you remind people like me that we're not the only ones struggling. And to know there are others like us makes the hurt so much more bearable Thank you. :)
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DeepDark00-0 Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012
Oooouuuuuch.
Impressive visual
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Iamthepokemon Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012
I feel the same way...........:(
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Kiccyke Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I Like it :squee:
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Shadaty Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I now how you feel.. :(
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corruptedhelios Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Student Digital Artist
*__* amazing. the shading is set perfect. and the face just looks so ... moving? i wish i could draw like that ( well i guess that wishes everyone^^)
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Gretgor Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012
If there's one thing you do perfectly right, that will be drawing. What a fantastic composition, dramatic, but beautifully detailed! :heart:
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JalensRequiem Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Student General Artist
Don't worry... I feel the way. You've done great because you tried your best. People would have given up, but you haven't. Keep it up, AkiraKirai!!! :3
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MiniAliceSuperstar Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow! Very expressive! Awesome! :love: I feel very often this too......It's horrible u.u
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nuyuin Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Student Photographer
That look hurt. The blood look so real
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natsumycandy Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012
wow! *W*
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Treysonk Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is a very beautiful and emotional piece.. I love the natural and grayscale look to it.
Also.. Your description was very uplifting to me in this moment... I've been going through one such circumstance and it's nice to know things aren't impossible.
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PENELOO Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012
wow :iconilavplz:
very Beautiful :iconchuuplz:
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Chapx Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012
Theres so much emotion in the description and your depicts it very well
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LarvalAngel Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
wonderful, you help to express and put these feelings in perspective for all of us.
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IWantSleep Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
I know those feelings too.. But moving forward is the only way. Fantastic work
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NekoNinja13 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
This is very good, an you aren't alone with those feelings
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redbossfan Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
Luckily, I rarely feel like this. However, your drawing is very powerful and brings the feeling across quite well.
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kaptenrobert Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is depressing, Stop torturing her. You're making me sad ;___;

Nicely done, I like it.
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llirbwerdnadivad Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
I know the feeling...
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Syphixious Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Student General Artist
This is a beautiful drawing.
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Baby-Nakker Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
WOW!! I feel the same way...It seems like no matter what I do no matter how much I change NOTHING works in favor or my desired outcome!!
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Poes-crow Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
I feel that way right now actually and you just put on the page what I was afraid to. thank you.
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Kirasel Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
Beautiful.
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bitteryetsweet Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
I have this feeling too...I kind of dislike it, and it's also making me mentally sick, but I considered it to be an integral part of my life. To me, there is no escaping it; you have to run toward it and not away from it, much like fear. There were some times I even wonder why I'm still alive, when I probably should be dead. But I'm not. You fall down 7 times, and you get up 8. Life sucks, and it feels like a slap to the face, but that's why I love it; it gives you a reason and maybe a desire to live.
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QuirkyIceHeart Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I know this feeling! :( And then even not moving feels like that's ruining things too... *hug* Amazing picture. I love your artwork.
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VoidCabbage Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
I went through the same feeling a couple weeks ago. But due to the support of my friends and my own aversion to living in the past, I kept moving forward and I am much happier for it ^-^
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IggysLittlePyro Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
I admire how you let out your emotions in your drawings. :) I love to look at them when I'm feeling a certain emotion. It calms me. haha. :)
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imaginary-ang3l Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You should totally make this into a series if you haven't already. I can totally sympathize with you about going forward. The future is scary and you don't know what really lies ahead, not knowing what you might do next will end up hurting somebody, but not doing anything could be just as bad. Haha, I'm going off on a tangent :p Though I find that religion really helps with these kinds of feelings. I'm Christian and very happy to be one. :love:
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sexywhales Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I was like this. Just a couple of weeks ago, even, and still a little bit now. I started seeing a counselor about it all... it helps.
Keep holding on, and keep on trying.
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alice-snow-kiss88 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
. . . i cant move . . . enven if i want to . . .

thank you for this
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