Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
Dwelling by akirakirai Dwelling by akirakirai
My problem is that I tend to expect so much from those I care for the most. Because I love them, I tend to expect such love back. But each moment of disappointment just hurts and makes me feel more and more raw, I have to learn to let go -- it's hard not to dwell.

Sorry I have not drawn in so long, this isn't even worth posting .. It is a very quick rough pencil drawing painted over in opencanvas. I have so many drawings that I have in mind but I don't have the time anymore >>

opencanvas, mechanical pencil
45 minutes
Add a Comment:
CrossroadSymmetry Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Your skill is blowing my mind. You inspire me, love. Thank you.
guineapig590 Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2014

still beautiful you can't tell you rushed it

(that's what I got from the description)

SarahFiction Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2013  Student General Artist
Is the opening quote from something in particular or one you've come up with? It fits my life perfectly right now...
derthmort Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2012
Bitter sweet darkness, though the reflection is beautiful.
ShortStack1315 Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2012  Student General Artist
Actually this is my Fav of yours that I've seen so far. We are our worst critics:)
BlackRelfection Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
it's so pretty, i like how the i guess those are shadows seem to be holding her in place.
i hope you can find the time to make more of these, your talented.
kosett Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2012  Hobbyist
The words in the description so clearly say what i feel. Thank you for posting this, it's impact is amazing and it is beautiful even if you don't think it is.
Suiish Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
psshaw your quick pencil drawings kick the ass on my 30+hours spent on arts. I'm loving this picture, the dramatic lighting and her eyes, all dark, they look almost alien. It IS worth posting in my opinion, i adore seeing your art, if you think something isnt worth posting just think, Sui will love to see this! {Even if she hasnt been on dA for a year TT__TT Sui will always come back to see gorgeous arts <3}
LivonaTori Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Amazing :3 Love it!
mina-k Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Your "quick rough" is very awsome, and stylish ! (sorry for my english, i'm not sure "stylish" really means what I want to say!! "stylé" in french ^ ^)
lycoris-vampire Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2012  Student Digital Artist
words beyond awsome<3
Fiveonthe Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2012   Digital Artist
It's beautiful. :)
kagamikun Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012  Hobbyist
It was nice seeing you at Fanime!!
Salu-chan Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Very impressive (:
I've always admired your work. I hope I'll become one day just like you (with another style ofcourse, we're still individuals). n_n
aumym Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2012  Student Digital Artist
it looks soo real! :D
XXXStryderXXX Featured By Owner May 29, 2012
You may feel like dwelling on your limits or your fears of no one's love as big as yours. Don't do it. A perfect prescription for a squandered, unfulfilled LOVE is to accommodate self-defeating feelings while undercutting your finest, most productive ones. This is beautiful your skill is undefined i see this canvas and i am blown away keep up the great work you are way ahead of your time... You will become phenomenal =D
melviso Featured By Owner May 22, 2012   Filmographer
hugs from me.wish I could be there to be ur friend unconditionally.Loving this work.
Take care.
MzzAzn Featured By Owner May 19, 2012
okay -_- i didn't get your three latest deviations in my inbox... T_T i thought u were like.. gone TOT!
shadowzabimaru Featured By Owner May 15, 2012  Student General Artist
wow, the lighting on this is really fantastic! =)
I hope life starts being nicer to you soon!
FelixMendoza Featured By Owner May 13, 2012  Student Digital Artist
I don't know about your standards, but It looks worth posting to me. The dramatic lighting creates a lot of feeling.
AlisterThatchel Featured By Owner May 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Absolutely beautiful! Wonderful job! :dummy::la::dummy:
Joakaha Featured By Owner May 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Nice! :D
Bobgirl5 Featured By Owner May 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is a very emotional piece. I might of said this before, but your depiction of emotions is incredible.
IggysLittlePyro Featured By Owner May 8, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Wow, even jsut a quick drawing looks amazing. :3 I'm glad my friend told me to look at ur booth at sakura-con. Ur stuff is awesome~ :D I love the raw reflection. <3
LyleRaju Featured By Owner May 8, 2012
We all have that problem. Love how your drawings have meaning. You truly are gifted
Cenafox Featured By Owner May 7, 2012
This is truely beautiful, all you drawings are. I love your style and that you have reasons for drawing. Your drawings are really amazing and have so much meaning.
DroBdead Featured By Owner May 7, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
did that all with just mechanical my what extraordinary talent you have

added to fav's :star:
ImagineI Featured By Owner May 7, 2012
Mesmerising reflection : )
SandalsForLife Featured By Owner May 7, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
THE DESCRIPTION !!!! :'''''''''( lovely artwork as well
hitsutoshi Featured By Owner May 6, 2012
This is so kewl! I was wondering if I could draw some of the things that yu drew. I wanted to ask first I also want to say that I won't upload it on any website and will make sure my buddies know that it was sone one elses
SportzChic Featured By Owner May 6, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
What takes you "45 minutes" would take me a lifetime! This is an amazing drawing! Well done! :D
Drakonias115 Featured By Owner May 6, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I thought those were blood spurts at first. Very nice.
KiwiSoul Featured By Owner May 6, 2012
It's good other than the fact I feel she is lacking the normal proportions of a forehead >>
akirakirai Featured By Owner May 6, 2012
Lol thanks, she's got a lot of bangs and if you skeleton out her head, the top of her heads actually a bit bigger than it should be lol. I tried to see it though!
White-Kyuubi-Fox Featured By Owner May 6, 2012
Oh my goooooooodness! Your art just keeps getting more and more beautiful!
Elglin Featured By Owner May 6, 2012
Lovely black and white effect, beautiful miror effect too....
KiralinaAndonuts Featured By Owner May 5, 2012  Student General Artist
This is so amazing.... and beautiful... I might want to buy a copy if you brought it to a convention!
DeepDark00-0 Featured By Owner May 5, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
This... this is intense.
You can color me impressed.
DaniLuciaTheArteer Featured By Owner May 5, 2012
This is... Well this is amazing!!! And its ok if u dont have time to do art... MAKE TIME cause this is awesome.
soulterror101 Featured By Owner May 5, 2012
mydyiingbreath Featured By Owner May 5, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
omg! this is beautiful! not worth posting? i couldn't DREAM of doing something like this! I looked at it and felt so many emotions. She's lonely and sad and scared of letting go put scared of holding on to tight. I'm in this place a lot. So I get it. I can't believe how beautiful your work is. Always. I think I'm gonna cry, emotions so real. keep drawing! you;re amazing!
happymeday Featured By Owner May 5, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I understand what you mean. You love them, and just expect some in return, something, but, if you don't tell them with words and not just glances and hopes and thoughts in your mind, how can they know?
But then, you just hope and expect that they will, without you ever having to say anything.
It IS hard not to dwell, but if you do, it ruins your relationship, with friends, lovers, family.
I hope things work out between you and whoever let you down.
Asa-tan Featured By Owner May 5, 2012  Hobbyist
of course this is worth posting! anything you put up will be beautiful and inspiring!
twiichii Featured By Owner May 5, 2012  Student General Artist
It's very understandable, aki~ ;O; and ilu!
Narutolover00 Featured By Owner May 5, 2012
I really like how much emotion is in this pic :) Well done! :+fav:
MokkunChan Featured By Owner May 5, 2012
I love your style here !QWQ
Niccies Featured By Owner May 5, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i think it's beautiful and it ease my heart to see that you'r still alive and kicking :) and i know how hard it can be, trust me.. but a wise man once told me "Don't place expectations on someone. Enjoy the time you have together, and let it go where it goes." help't me through some of it, that and a lot of ice cream ^^
Saytos Featured By Owner May 5, 2012  Hobbyist
AnnaSasha Featured By Owner May 5, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That's one beautiful drawing. * v *

And so true...
hecker45 Featured By Owner May 5, 2012
Well this is something to remember
Add a Comment:


Submitted on
May 4, 2012
Image Size
364 KB
Submitted with


30,844 (2 today)
2,505 (who?)